In Life as in Death, you were a living embodiment of an undying faith and relentless prayers..
And once again, I realized today how fragile this human life is.
Till yesterday only, I wanted to take my own life. Little did I know the implications of it on the ones who would have been left behind.
As I feel every bit of the restlessness in this one moment and nothing at all in the very next moment, I know what it takes to exist.
Dying is not easy, but living a life without the ones you love the most is certainly the most difficult of all things.
I wish I had never said those things about you. I wish you were awake when I wished you ram ram the last time. I wish you could hear me greet you as I stood by your side even though for a few moments.
This memory, like every other, shall fade some day, but this pain of an irrecoverable loss will never go away.
I wish I could hear more of Hare Rama hare Krishna before the same Krishna took you away with him, to relieve you of all the pain and suffering this old age had cursed you with.
I’m sure you are in a better place now but what do I do with this selfish soul that is not ready to accept the fact that home will never be the same without you.
Now that you have joined the stars, I am sure your shining light will keep guiding our lives in each adversity and at every altar.
Thank you for being a part of our lives daadi maa.