Dear ex-lover, I will never forgive you!

So here we are, again.

Standing at the same crossroads this one more time. I’m sure you know why after 3 years I messaged you last night.

Yes, it is March 24 today – the same date when you told me the biggest ever lie – I love you, 7 years ago.

It was then when the naive me fell for that trap. This is now, when the enlightened me is trying to pull herself out from the dungeons of time.

Just reiterating what I have already told you.

I will NEVER forgive you.

I will never forgive you for giving up on me when I needed you the most to stick around. Now, there’s nothing that I hate more than I hate I won’t give up by Jason Mraz.

I will never forgive you for pushing me into those dark places the memories of which still haunt me in my sleep.

I will never forgive you for reducing my existence to a living embodiment of tears and gloom.

I will never forgive you for uprooting my faith in the power of prayers.

I will never forgive you for seeding this disbelief in humanity into my head.

I will never forgive you for leaving me alone in this state of perpetual sadness.

I will never forgive you for saying one thing and doing completely opposite of it.

I will never forgive you for all the lies you told me about embracing my flaws.

I will never forgive you for making me go through all those days when I questioned my own existence.

I will never forgive you for all those nights when I wished I was dead.

I will never forgive you for all the moments I lost during those three precious years of my life.

I will never forgive you for seeding the belief: happiness is a myth, in my head.

I will never forgive you for making me constantly ask myself whether I really deserve happiness.

I will never forgive you for killing the child inside me and then making the demise of my youth look like a natural death.

I will never forgive you for all the hurt I caused to my parents and my siblings alike by not being able to live a normal life.

I will never forgive you for all those sleepless nights, for these swelled eyes, for those half-torn syringes of sedatives, for those broken pieces of glass bottles filled with medicines, for the smudged Kohl around my eyes, for all those helpless cries, for all those migraine attacks, for all those unopened gift packs.

I will never forgive you for making me disbelieve in the institution of marriage.

I will never forgive you for leaving this void in my heart, which despite all the love just doesn’t seem to fill.

I will never forgive you for all that you turned out to be.

I will never forgive you for pushing me so much into the darkness that for everyone around me, it has become their life’s greatest challenge to save me from myself.

I will never forgive you making my life a living hell.

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Author: K. Dhingra

I am a journalist and writer. Introvert by nature; extrovert in adventures. Fond of playing with words and framing them into meaningful excerpts. A nature fanatic and a believer in feminism. The inexplicable power of prayers and faith, is what gets me going. I live, to witness my "miracle in life." HOPE is my favorite word in all the dictionaries available under the sun! would love to touch as many lives through my writings, as i can, in this short-run. To all the visitors- Thanks for sparing time, and going through my profile. keep smiling. spread more love.. © KRITI DHINGRA and SLICE OF LIFE, 2017. Unauthorized use and/or duplication of this material without express and written permission from this blog’s author and/or owner is strictly prohibited. Excerpts and links may be used, provided that full and clear credit is given to KRITI DHINGRA and SLICE OF LIFE 2017 with appropriate and specific direction to the original content.

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