I wonder if you will ever know about the forgotten copy of your visiting card adorning the pocket inside my cellphone cover!
I wonder if you will ever see the disappointment behind the cups of brewed coffee still lying unattended inside the refrigerator.
I wonder if you will ever go on a roundabout trip of the feelings you always failed to acknowledge thinking those were never meant to last.
I wonder if you will ever think about the repercussions of your actions and the consequences of your inactions for people who who actually did open their heart(s).
I wonder if you will ever find enough time to think in retrospect that you might have wronged someone so bad that the person in question literally chose to give up on her life instead.
I wonder if you would ever want to go back in the past and learn lessons from it to make the desired corrections for a better future.
I wonder if you will ever regret pushing away someone who loved you with all she had.
It’s funny yet astonishing how we relate our feelings with objects of importance and how we choose to describe our emotions through metaphors.
How each time I see you wearing that silver bangle makes me wonder how you would look in that rugged wrist watch I dared to gift you on your birthday.
How each phone conversation of ours still rings a bell in my ears.
How each time someone mentions hills and mountains, I still think of you and how that very thought leaves my heart in despair.
How I still imagine you doing things as per your routine each time you work in the night shifts,
And, how each one of those nights reminds me of the smile that now seems to be missing from my lips.
How I still check my phone at 5:45 in the morning, secretly hoping for you to give me a wake up call,
And how each one of those moments – when I choose to be in denial of reality – makes it a matter of life and death for me to move on!